Victory!

exactly one month ago i was in Bellevue Hotel with Kristel. having fun. yeah great fun! it's our Victory Weekend! it's the day of our Victory! actually we have no idea what's goin' to happen and that's what made us more excited! we spent our first day at the Victory Center with discussions. lessons that really hit me hard. we were a little late then and goodness.. we just arrived but they made us cry agad huhu.. hehe! the feeling was really heavy. i really feel bad for myself. we were just getting started but there's already something in me that wants to come out! something that i felt was gonna burst out! during the discussions all my sins flashed back in my mind. i felt really down. really weak. but God was there. right there with us. He comforted us. He made us rest in His arms. God was there.. right from the start...

lessons ended. it's time to check-in at the hotel. we're in room 1908. this time, the activity is more exciting! and i'm nervous. so nervous i can't eat! hehe.. pero nakapag-pictorial hehe! it's our one on one counseling with our Spiritual Leader. with our Spiritual Mom. it really made me nervous! i was tensed! i was funny. hehe.. when Barbie came i was a little relieved. she told her funny experience in the elevator pa. hehehe! and thank God our roommate's leader came first so they went first hehe! we just waited, seated, chatting at the corridor but someone came and told us it's not allowed to stay there. hmph! so we went at the lobby to find a place but it's full with the other girls waiting for their turn. it was also the first time we (including Barbie) saw her Sunsilk commercial and full video with Kitchie. it just happened that the person who had it was there too. we had fun viewing it! haha! the "super kaway" hehe! panalo talaga hehe! afterwards, we went at the 2nd floor to look for a place and there! we found a perfect one hehe.. we just hanged-out there with Martin. my nervous then disappeared. we were having fun kasi. but still somehow praying it'll take long pa before we start hehe!

until the time has come for us. goodness! here's my nervous again! waaahhh!!! we were alone in our room na. and i can't hand her my booklet! haha! Barbie told me not to be shy that it's just okay. that she went through it too. but i can't help it eh! hehe.. so she gave me a few minutes pa to relax hehe! funny siguro ng itsura ko nun. i can't imagine. hehe.. and so.. relaxing is done. and still i'm not relaxed. hehe.. but we started na. i can't escape na! this is it! hehe! as the counseling went on. i was being releived little by little.. the feelings that wants to come out during the discussions at the Center came out little by little. the heavy feeling is starting to lighten. there's just this one part i kinda suffered letting go. it was really hard. i feel really down with it. but Barbie's doin everything to help me let go of it na. until i cried over it. i blurted it out thru tears.. the feelin was really heavy inside. i can't control it. i can't forgive myself. i felt really guilty. but God and Barbie comforted me. they let me rest in their arms. it took a long time but it was great! after that the feelin was so great! i feel so clean i feel so new! i feel so refreshed! and above all.. i'm free! i've already been freed from the prison of my sins. that was a night i won't forget for the rest of my life. the night that changed me.

2nd day.. baptism of the Holy Spirit and Water Baptism na! we had great fun during the Water Baptism. lamig ng tubig sa pool! hehe! it was really enjoy! hehe.. after all the activities. i really feel so new. the feeling was really great talaga. i can't explain it! i really felt the spiritual freedom.

exactly one month ago june16-17,2006 was the most important day of my Christian life. it's the day of my deliverance.

thank you Barbie for helping and guiding me. thank you that you prayed for me to be saved. you're a blessing! you're my angel! :)
and thank you Lord for saving me. thank you Lord for loving me first! i am your forever princess... let's have a life-long walk :) i love you!